Going After the Beast


Screen Shot 2015-01-06 at 1.49.38 PMFear…Grief…two very different emotions. But for me, they are tightly linked, at least today.

As a woman with many health issues, one including chronic pain, more time than I’d like to admit is tied up into finding relief.  That is a good thing, right?  I’m seeking natural remedies and ways to heal my body with good nutrition rather than just adding more medications.  I have more than my share of meds already, which I am slowly, every so slowly, getting out of my system.  Progress is being made and I will rejoice in THAT rather than in how far I still have yet to go.

But there is a negative side to endless searching for something that will bring relief to the pain.  Fear.  What if this is one more thing that will not work?  Grief.  Grief if it doesn’t work, and strangely, even if it DOES!

 Let me explain…

With my diagnosis of Celiac disease in 2009 came the loss of many foods I was used accustomed to.  I went through a period of grief over the loss of those things.

In subsequent years I have gone through other diet alterations, each one bringing more loss.    But you grieve the loss and then learn to live life in contentment with what you still have.

I am facing another loss.  A dietary one, but yes, a loss just the same.  This one seriously scares me.  I have adjusted well to life on the Autoimmune Protocol of the Paleo diet (AIP) and have been pleased with the results thus far.  Except in one area…pain.  And to be honest, my fibromyalgia pain is the catalyst to most of the changes I’ve made in the last couple years.  I have certain staples in my diet that make AIP tolerable.  The problem? 90% of those stables will be lost in this new attempt to conquer the beast that is fibromyalgia.  Herein lies the grief.  And that fear…what if it DOES work?!  Oh how I pray it does!  But then again, are you seriously kidding me?

Last night I went to bed not only because I was tired.  I was afraid.  I was angry.  I was overwhelmed and just wanted to stop thinking about the possibilities.

This morning?  Ah…so thankful that His mercies are new each day!  Yes, the sleep helped.  But more than that, God’s Word spoke to me this morning.  No, the passage was not written TO me, but it was FOR me.

Lessons from Isaiah

In Isaiah chapter 7, Ahaz was told that he and his people were going to be attacked.  They were absolutely petrified.  Look at verse 2.

‘…And the heart of Ahaz and the heart of his people shook as the trees of the forest shake before the wind.”      Isaiah 7:2

Can you see it?  What a word picture! Last night, that was me.

I’ve been studying this chapter for several day but only TODAY, did God use it to speak directly to MY heart.

‘Be careful, be quiet, do not fear, and do not let your heart be faint because of these two smoldering stumps of firebrands       Isaiah 7:4a

“If you are not firm in faith,
you will not be firm at all.”       Isaiah 7:9b

You may not see how specific this was to me, but I did.  One stump is the already difficult diet I am on – AIP.  The second stump is the addition of the second, which will take away many of the foods I have come to depend on, to get me through the first.

I NEED to know if this will work.  So I am giving it a go.  If you know me, you know that I don’t cheat when it comes to these diets.  I will give it my all.  But by God’s grace, I want to give God my HEART in it as well.  He has met me in my grief this morning.  He knows my fear and He has told me to be quiet, to not be afraid, and to not faint in this endeavor.

I will need a few days to get my head around this, but the next step is a low fodmap/AIP diet.  As I am learning to focus on truth in our Loving God with All Your Mind study by Elizabeth George, these verses will be key.

I can do ALL things through Him who strengthens me.    Philippians 4:13

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.     Jeremiah 29:11

                   God is good!



10 thoughts on “Going After the Beast

  1. I will pray for you, and have faith things will work out they way they are supposed to. It may not be the way you wish, but you will find a way to adjust. And if this new attempt does not work, at least you know you tried!

  2. Very well written, Beth. I know you will give this new approach the attention it will need on your journey to wellness. I praise God for His speaking to you through His word and I will continue to pray for you!

  3. I absolutely love it when God’s Word meets us where we’re at, whether it’s through our Bible study or through our thoughts as we’re trying to go to sleep. He is so comforting, isn’t He? I just finished praying for you, I can’t imagine having chronic pain and the restricted things that come along with that. I wonder if you’ve ever tried essential oils? They’ve done wonders for me in health issues like chronic, debilitating migraines, GERD, asthma, etc. Just a thought. Back to Scripture & God sustaining you. I’d love to encourage you with Isaiah 41:10, “Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Wishing you grace and mercy as you walk this road toward being pain-free & trust as you rest in God’s sovereignty. Visiting from the Grace & Truth link-up (which btw, I’d love to see you win the giveaway and be able to pin this post to our Pinterest board, but first you’ll need to add a link-back to our Grace & Truth Link-up!)

    • Thank you for your encouragement, Holly! That verse is very timely. In answer to your EO question, I do use EOs for concentrated pain, and many other things. Most of my chronic pain is all over, so the EOs aren’t as much help. I’d need to bathe in them! Even yesterday I put some on the left side of my neck because of stiffness and pain. When I went to my chiro later that day, I asked her if it felt tighter than the right, because the left was causing me much more trouble. She said the left was much more supple at that point, because of the EOs. And I haven’t used allergy meds in over a year because of my Respirator Relief (from Heritage Essential Oils) I use at the slightest hint of a scratchy throat. It’s been amazing!

      I have posted the link to this post on Busy Being Blessed so I should be entered into the giveaway. That would be a treat, for sure, to win. Did I fail to add something to finish entering? I’ll try to “grab the button”. I’m not sure I know how to do it, but I’ll try!

  4. Hi, Beth! I wanted to let you know that I featured your post in my blog today. I also saw that you have an update about “the beast.” I wondered if you’ve looked into the Perfect Health Diet?
    I’ll talk to you later about it. But I’m praying for you, friend!

    • Thank you , Jen! The diet I am on was recommended by my doctor, so I will likely stick with it for a while. It is helping with so many things, and healing my gut, it may just be that I have to wait a while on the pain issue. Hopefully it will come at some point. Thanks again so much for featuring me!

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