As a woman with many health issues, one including chronic pain, more time than I’d like to admit is tied up into finding relief. That is a good thing, right? I’m seeking natural remedies and ways to heal my body with good nutrition rather than just adding more medications. I have more than my share of meds already, which I am slowly, every so slowly, getting out of my system. Progress is being made and I will rejoice in THAT rather than in how far I still have yet to go.
But there is a negative side to endless searching for something that will bring relief to the pain. Fear. What if this is one more thing that will not work? Grief. Grief if it doesn’t work, and strangely, even if it DOES!
Let me explain…
With my diagnosis of Celiac disease in 2009 came the loss of many foods I was used accustomed to. I went through a period of grief over the loss of those things.
In subsequent years I have gone through other diet alterations, each one bringing more loss. But you grieve the loss and then learn to live life in contentment with what you still have.
I am facing another loss. A dietary one, but yes, a loss just the same. This one seriously scares me. I have adjusted well to life on the Autoimmune Protocol of the Paleo diet (AIP) and have been pleased with the results thus far. Except in one area…pain. And to be honest, my fibromyalgia pain is the catalyst to most of the changes I’ve made in the last couple years. I have certain staples in my diet that make AIP tolerable. The problem? 90% of those stables will be lost in this new attempt to conquer the beast that is fibromyalgia. Herein lies the grief. And that fear…what if it DOES work?! Oh how I pray it does! But then again, are you seriously kidding me?
Last night I went to bed not only because I was tired. I was afraid. I was angry. I was overwhelmed and just wanted to stop thinking about the possibilities.
This morning? Ah…so thankful that His mercies are new each day! Yes, the sleep helped. But more than that, God’s Word spoke to me this morning. No, the passage was not written TO me, but it was FOR me.
Lessons from Isaiah
In Isaiah chapter 7, Ahaz was told that he and his people were going to be attacked. They were absolutely petrified. Look at verse 2.
‘…And the heart of Ahaz and the heart of his people shook as the trees of the forest shake before the wind.” Isaiah 7:2
Can you see it? What a word picture! Last night, that was me.
I’ve been studying this chapter for several day but only TODAY, did God use it to speak directly to MY heart.
‘Be careful, be quiet, do not fear, and do not let your heart be faint because of these two smoldering stumps of firebrands Isaiah 7:4a
“If you are not firm in faith,
you will not be firm at all.” Isaiah 7:9b
You may not see how specific this was to me, but I did. One stump is the already difficult diet I am on – AIP. The second stump is the addition of the second, which will take away many of the foods I have come to depend on, to get me through the first.
I NEED to know if this will work. So I am giving it a go. If you know me, you know that I don’t cheat when it comes to these diets. I will give it my all. But by God’s grace, I want to give God my HEART in it as well. He has met me in my grief this morning. He knows my fear and He has told me to be quiet, to not be afraid, and to not faint in this endeavor.
I will need a few days to get my head around this, but the next step is a low fodmap/AIP diet. As I am learning to focus on truth in our Loving God with All Your Mind study by Elizabeth George, these verses will be key.
I can do ALL things through Him who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11
God is good!